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I’m such a prick!

I’m an asshole.
I admit it, sometimes I’ll start a fight over the stupidest things.
Here’s the deal, I’m in bed, I’ve just gotten two 80 pound dogs settled and am trying to drift off. Problem is, the lights and noise from the rest of the house. The TV is on in the living room and the canned laugh track is becoming more annoying by the second.
So I ask my much better half to just close the bedroom door for me. I think, no big deal right?
WRONG! “I’m coming to bed in just a few minutes, I just need to finish this little thing.”
The deal is that quite often when I ask for what I think is a simple thing, instead of getting a simple yes OR no I get endless excuses and explanations none of which are adding anything to the conversation, or in this case, going to allow me to freaking go to sleep.
In fact the longer the explanation the more of my brain that gets spun back up to process the incoming information. Which more often than not just pisses me off. Even in daily interactions I hate people telling me how to BUILD a clock when all I wanted was to know the time.
My reactions to these situations don’t help.
The following is not meant as an excuse otherwise I’d be guilty of the shit that I’m bitching about. It’s just a little background.
I’ve been feeling squeezed/compressed lately. There’s a lot of issues, mostly mine, but one of the things that’s bugging me is that I don’t feel like I have a place to work or spread my stuff out in the house that’s not in the living room or across the dining table. I HATE having shit out in the entertaining areas, If someone drops by, I always feel like the place is a pig sty, even if it’ not really that much of a mess. 
I know what some parts of the problem is, the house is too small, we have too much shit, and I’m worried about finding work.
I let this stupid “Baggage” combine and my mouth ran away from my common sense.
I said out loud “I miss my piece of shit one bedroom apartment and living alone.” 
As the words came out of my mouth, I thought FUCK!!!!! Where the hell did that come from?  While that is sometimes a true statement it’s not always the case. Regardless though it’s something I should never have said. Especially not to someone that has my best interests at heart even if I don’t always see it.
I’ve hurt feelings, You can’t take stuff like that back, and Yep! I’m a real asshole.
Now what do I say or do to apologize? Moreover, how many times can I apologize for being in general an Ass before I come home to an empty house?
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Unusual weather for So Cal

It’s cold and wet here.

We’ve been having really strange cold fronts wandering down from the north. It’s rained here for the past two days and there is snow in the upper elevations.

Snow in May, not completely unheard of here but rare.

I’m guessing that the ski resorts in the local area are pretty happy about it since they get to stay open a little longer.

There are those that say this is a result of climate change and OMG it’s all the Humans fault.
Maybe, but I tend to think that while we should be responsible and do all we can AS we can to minimize our impact on the planet. I’m also not convinced that the changes we’re seeing are anything other than part of a normal cycle.

After all much of human history has existed between ice ages. We know that the world has been much colder and also much warmer than it is currently.

I’d bet that if you were to ask a geologist he wouldn’t be able to tell you if we were going into another ice age or if we were going into another warming phase. Which is why no doubt the terms changed of the past several years.

Think about it, less than 10 years ago all we heard about was global warming, and how the world was going to be a desert. Now it’s Climate Change, because no-one can say for sure which direction we’re heading in.

For my part, I’m going to just try to enjoy the weather, I get so bored with “Its another perfect day in Southern California”…

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Working from a Netbook

Decided to get a Netbook. I’m planning on doing some traveling & camping so I didn’t want to have to worry about carrying my MacBook Pro or my iPad.

I figure that since for the price of the iPad alone I could buy 4 of these machines it just makes more sense in the event that the machine was to be stolen.

This is a pretty slick little machine, not sure if I like Windows 7 Starter. It seems that Microsoft crippled the OS in some really annoying ways just so they could TRY and I mean TRY to get someone to pay $119 for the ability to play DVDs or change the desktop background.

Uh hello? the shareware market is amazing and Microsoft really hasn’t done anything but slow me down for about 4 minutes! NEXT!

This little thing is not all that fast but it sure as heck is serviceable.

It should allow me to do a little editing on photos that I may want to take. I can keep up the blog, get my email, and do some writing.

Not sure that I’ll ever completely give up my Macbook Pro, but for an inexpensive traveling computer this is a pretty good deal.