Tag: Holidays

Last year around this time I was dealing with a lot. 

I’d come through Jerry’s death, the blizzard in Feb. and my brain being locked up with too many emotions to process.

Easter was always one of those holidays that Jerry worked really hard on. Not quite so much as Christmas, but it was an important day in his calendar. 

Easter was one of those days when he’d bring home flowers to brighten the house. He raided them from the flower arrangements at the church. His logic was that they were just going to wilt and die anyway, There was no reason they shouldn’t brighten up our house for a week.

He also would often bring home candy or chocolate rabbits. For my part, while he was playing the Easter Services I’d be here cooking, or preparing to cook a nice Sunday meal. We tried to make Sunday dinner important, Easter Sunday dinner was a little more special.

Last year I hardly noticed the day passing.

This year, I’m generally in a much better place mentally,  but I’m aware that there’ll be no flowers and candy. Somehow me being in a better mental state makes the day seem a little sharp? I know I’m not being “Easter minded” right now. I suspect this may be one of the last holidays to get through. 

I’ve managed to get through a whole calendar year, I forgot that there were holidays that slipped by me right after Jerry died so I didn’t really stop to think about them. This year I missed Jerry making corned beef on St Patricks Day. I missed a flower, or a plant on Valentines day.

I’ll miss the flowers from the Easter Arrangements adorning the table and I don’t feel much like making a big dinner. I’ve got more snow shoveling to do today anyway. 

This Easter is a contemplative one.

Perhaps, that’s the way it’s supposed to be.

Everyone, Have a good day.

I hope everyone isn’t too hung over.

All is quiet here and aside from a pup who’s a bit under the weather. You know the pu pis sick when you wake up in the middle of the night and can hear their tummy making all kinds of weird sounds.

He was dozing, but when I asked him if he needed to go out, he was instantly up and heading to the door.

He’s been out 6 times since 3am. I appears whatever it was seems to have passed. He’s sound asleep on the couch now. 

I plan on spending a nice quiet day and perhaps napping through the afternoon.

Now that we have some sunshine, I may take him for a walk earlier than usual just to get that out of the way.

When he’s sick, I don’t get much sleep. I lay awake worrying over him and trying to cuddle him so he’s comfortable.

I’ve at least been a little productive today. I’ve managed to start collecting the documents for tax season. The plan is, once I get the various 1099 forms and other statements at the end of Jan, All that crap is going to the accountant and the IRS will be out of my hair for another year. Fingers Crossed!

Zero Plans!

I guess that is actually a plan. The pup doesn’t like loud noises. I don’t like driving with drunks.

Honestly, Jerry and I had stopped going places on New Years Eve. 

One party we were invited to, became not a nice party because of one guest who was always drunk and always abusive.

In recent years Jerry & I had started declining the invitation.

Earlier in the year, I got an invitation from this same couple to attend their Summer party. I declined that invitation because I wasn’t up for dealing with that particular guest, and it felt a little too soon after Jerry’s death to be attending a party. Okay maybe that’s silly but the wound was still raw.

I didn’t receive an invitation to their usual New Years Eve celebration. That’s just as well, because I didn’t have to decline. Nor did I have to politely explain why I was declining the invitation. 

I’m looking forward to making dinner, listening to some music, and probably keeping to a mostly normal bed time. Although, I might turn on the HAM Radio and listen to the New Year being rung in old school. I haven’t decided yet.

I hope that this new year will be a much better one than the last couple of years. I’m not holding my breath on the “Much” part, but would happily settle for small improvements. 

Happy New Years Eve.

Have fun, be safe.