Well I don’t have to water today.

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We’re finally getting a little rain. It’s not nearly enough to replenish the wells in town. Still, its better than nothing.

Unfortunately, I don’t think it’s going to last. We’ve been having bands of light rain making it over the mountain top. I suspect that the bulk of the rain has been falling on the seaward side of the mountains soaking the foothills, Rancho and Ontario.

I’m not complaining, like I said anything is better than nothing. Besides, as dry as the ground is, if the rain came down any harder it would just run off without soaking in.

I’ve been thinking about moving my desk to face the window. That way I’d be able to watch it rain, or snow while I’m working, then there’s also getting to watch the critters that come into the yard. 

I’m hoping that it rains like this all day long.

Reflections

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It was my birthday last week.

This one is a strange one.

I am the same age my father was, when he died. It messes with your head, I’m a young guy.

When I look in the mirror, at first glance I see myself in my early 30’s

When I look deeper, I see grey around the edges. The beginnings of that awful “Chicken Neck” thing that happens in some of my family.  Some blotchiness in my skin, a bit of sun damage and crows feet. My beard and goatee aren’t nearly as youthful as they once were. I take a moment in the steamy mirror to contemplate the changes and decide either due to reality or my ability to delude myself that I’m still not “OLD”.

The grey at my temples doesn’t look bad, the sprinkling of grey throughout my hair is still easily hidden with a shorter hair cut and even the slight recession in my hairline isn’t a disaster.

Then I flash on Dad lying in the hospital bed. With a little imagination I can strip away the ravages of disease and I see a guy that looks remarkably like me. It’s strange and disconcerting to think that If Dad was alive today he’d be in his 70’s and probably still spry and active. He’d certainly be able to hold his own in a political discussion.

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What would my Dad think of things as they are today? Would he be pissed, or would he have just given up; realizing that the battles he’d be trying to fight have already been lost?

Oddly, and something that spooks me deeply is that my life has mirrored my father’s in many ways.

Dad made his own way, he started businesses and generally was successful. He had a nice home, nice cars and a successful business when I was a child. He decided to “Check Out” of the ratrace in his mid 30’s and moved to Tennessee. He built a beautiful home, (or so I’ve been told) I never saw it completed. The house burned and Dad was back to square one.

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Unfortunately, for dad, time passed and he’d missed a large transition from discrete electronic components to IC packages. This meant that he had a lot of catching up to do if he wanted to return to office dictation equipment sales and repair. I don’t know if he was ever successful in making that transition, we lost touch with each other for a while.

The next I heard he was in Florida again this time putting together an custom office furniture business where he built all the furniture. I lost touch again then heard from him when he told me he was in Sarasota building and selling houses. Again I gather that he was pretty successful, he must have been in his late 40’s by then.

Next I heard, he was in South Carolina. He was living with his Mom and starting another business. This time in cabinetry, That’s where his time ran out.

Resilience is one word I think of when I think of my father. He did all he did with a high school education, Navy training, determination and raw smarts. 

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In the late 70s I got into computers. By the mid 80s I had been kicked in the teeth, done a bankruptcy, and was clawing my way back up the heap. For the most part I was successful, I was working in an industry that didn’t care what school you went to. All they cared about was your ability to fix shit, make shit, sell shit, or support the shit that had already been made, or sold.

I did quite well for a long time and never thought about going back to college. After all experience trumps book learning any day of the week right?

Well, it did… back in the old days. By the mid ‘90s those of us in the industry were beginning to notice that H1B1 visas were taking positions that we would have recommended our friends for. Often we didn’t even know there were openings in the department we were working in.

Jobs got harder to get.

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California entered a slow death spiral that continues to this day. Suddenly your college pedigree was the most important thing regardless of how much experience you had. 

Then the layoffs happened.

Like my Dad at this age, I’m trying to find and create a new place in the world for myself. College? A new career? A complete change, or only a partial change? Do I want to return to the tech rat race, or would I prefer to do something more interesting? 

I don’t know. What I do know is that I’m running out of time.

I’d expected to retire from the last tech company I was working for, maybe I was retired… 

Must’ve missed the memo.

Lately, it seems that nothing I’ve tried has worked out as expected, perhaps “as needed” is a better description. 

I’m not the only person in this situation. I’m still hearing about friends that are bailing, either out of their careers, or California. 

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I’m starting to get over the weirdness of this birthday,

I’m at a place in my life I’ve been before… It’s the “fuck it all, cinch up my bootstraps, and start kicking some ass” point.

I thought perhaps I didn’t have the strength to do it all over again. I’m tired, I’d grown sick of the bullshit in corporate America, but it’s all I know. I’ve wanted to just give up, to allow myself to just be swept aside, to accept that my fate was not my own and be a victim.

Then I think of Dad, he didn’t have the time to reboot his life.

I think he’d understand what I’m feeling now, then I suspect he’d say “Now that you’ve gotten that off your chest, GET OFF YOUR ASS!”

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OK Dad, this one’s for you…

As you wish…

Hamas Rejects ‘Final’ Ceasefire: “Death for Allah is our most exalted wish”

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Sometimes… You just wonder, sigh.

Some of the earliest tales from the middle east are about Djins. From these tales, come stories of Alladin, and culminate in America in the all time favorite show “I Dream of Jeannie”.

Djin in the original tales weren’t nice. In some tales, they were said to be from an elder race which predated humans. The world had been taken from them and given to mankind… they weren’t happy about it. So they became tricksters and yes, they would grant your wish but at a terrible price.

If you wanted an exciting life, you could find yourself falling out of a plane in a war zone without a parachute. Sure your life would be very exciting for all of about 7 minutes or so.

When I saw the headline and Hamas quote, all I could think of was an old movie where a Djin was released from it’s imprisonment. The creature kept granting the most petty, venal, and childish of wishes. Each wish ended very badly and the creature would always say, “As you wish” with a smile.

This headline tells me a couple of things. 

1) Hamas is not the least bit interested in protecting its people.

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2) Hamas is an illegitimate government and needs to be eradicated from the face of the Earth.

I hope Israel grants Hamas wish.

It occurred to me this morning that Israel has less reason to show restraint.  

In the past, America could request Israel go to the negotiation table.  We were after all supplying the Israelis with defensive weapons and ammunition.

Since president Stompy Foot started interfering with ammunition shipments to Israel, I suspect it’s changed the landscape of the conflict.

Now, Israel has a limited amount of time before Iron Dome runs out of missiles. Once Iron Dome fails, Israel will be vulnerable to Hamas missiles. 

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Were I a commander in the IDF, My recommendation would be to begin an all out assault. After all, my country’s only option for survival would be to utterly destroy my enemy, before my enemy was in a position to harm my people. In other words, I could no longer afford to be magnanimous with my warnings or kind about how I selected targets. 

My orders would be to bomb and destroy my enemy’s positions where ever they were without question.

Rocket launchers in a Mosque? Destroy the Mosque and all it’s surrounding compound. Launchers in a UN sponsored school? Sorry UN I thought you’d become an active combatant.

But Israel has another impetus to take the gloves off. It’s economic, with Europe turning it’s back on Israel  and refusing to accept some Israeli imports, and Pro-Palestinian assholes here in America attempting to interfere with shipping, what incentive to Israel have to listen to anyone? The way I see it, none.

Especially when reports come out of Gaza that indicate Hamas is manipulating the story and painting Israel as the bad guy. Those reports are in fact being buried or ignored by the World press. 

Israel has already been accused, tried, convicted, and condemned of a crime they have yet to commit. There’s little reason for them NOT to go ahead and initiate an operation called “Scorched Earth” or to borrow from the series Spartacus operation “Kill them all”. After the smoke cleared they could legitimately get away with “Ooops!”

The beach front property would make an awesome tourist area.

Hamas should really be much more careful about what they ask for.


Here’s a video that says kinda what I said but in a much nicer, funnier way

This is CNN…

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The most trusted name in news…

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!

These are the people who spoon feed the masses daily news which in turn low information voters use to make decisions about who to vote for.

I long for the day when the news moved slower, and the journalists were interested in FACTS, not spin.

With the internet at our fingers, it’s nothing to see an article on Brietbart, Fox, The BBC, Le Monde, or Deutsch Welle, and think, “That sounds fishy” then track the story to its source.

It’s not uncommon for there to be some spin in any article due to the journalist’s own beliefs. The question is, has the journalist allowed their bias to skew the story in such a way as to misrepresent the actual facts.

CNN, MSNBC and the main stream media have allowed their biases to completely overwhelm many of their stories and almost all of their reporting.

That’s bad enough, however it gets worse. Their editorial staff is more concerned about their dismal ratings than journalistic integrity, so you get un-vetted, questionable reporting at best, and worst (or in CNN’s case normal) they place Hong Kong where São Paulo Brazil is.

As a blogger, I don’t have high journalistic standards to uphold. I get the luxury of doing nothing but Op-Ed pieces, I do basic checking and try very hard not to froth at the mouth.

I try very hard not to say something entirely stupid even if I’m only a blogger expressing my opinion.

I always do my best not to drool stupidity on the keyboard.

CNN apparently needs a bib.

Well there goes the view

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Anybody what to buy a slightly used house?

I’m big on people being left to do what they want on their property. But DAMN! 

As much as I hate Homeowners Associations and folks being up in my business, I can see why they exist.  Fucking Orange County has come to my mountain.  You see, my neighbors decided to build a fence.

Great! It’s cool and they have small children and are talking about getting a dog… Or so I thought.

Last year, the county came up digging and screwing up the wash, they put access paths where none previously existed, and of course, didn’t complete the access paths they started. Typical of county workers!  

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It’s created a situation where people walking up our side of the wash are dumped out right in my neighbors yard. That was bad, but with them having small children and me having dogs who are trained to bark at strangers being someplace they’re not supposed to be, it created a problem.

I can fully understand the neighbors building a fence. When they broached the subject I figured they’d do what everyone else did, a nice low chain-link fence. You know something that would keep the kids in, and strangers out. A nice demarkation that said, “Hey folks this is private property, so stop tromping across my tomato garden.” You know, something that would blend in with the general gray of the ground and yet we’d still be able to see through it.

I never in my wildest dreams imagined a 7ft tall wood fence. Nor did I imagine that the neighbors would be so completely and utterly thoughtless about what their 7FT tall fence would do to my view, or their adjacent neighbors view, or the neighbor on the other side of me.

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Honestly, there is not ONE single place from any of my decks or back yard, that I don’t see this behemoth no matter how hard I try to ignore it, ITS ALWATS THERE!!!!

For Gods sake you can see this Stalag 17 fence from 1/4 of a mile away I can’t even imagine what the neighbors down the canyon are thinking.

Perhaps part of my annoyance is due to the following;

We lost some privacy when the trampoline went up directly outside the slider leading from our bedroom to the deck.

I figured, no big deal, in a few years the trampoline wouldn’t be used all that much by the kids, since children tire of things in time.  So I said nothing, however I had to change my behavior in the evenings or in the early mornings.

IIMG 0309 had a habit of coming out of the master bathroom into my bedroom naked. Most of the time the blind on the slider is at least partially down, then one day I realized, the blind really had to be almost completely down to make sure that I wasn’t exposing myself to whatever children might be playing on the trampoline.

Now, I dress in the bathroom before I come out.

I said nothing about the excited squeals of children playing. It was nice to know they were being kids and enjoying themselves.

The excited squeals meant that if I needed to make a business or professional phone call and the kids were playing, I needed to close the sliders on the back of the house.

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We’ve started keeping the dogs inside since the new dog tends to like to bark at the kids, trying to get them to play with him. The dog doesn’t understand that he can’t play with the kids through the fence. The kids should be able to play in peace, without a dog barking at them no matter how friendly his intentions. I don’t know if I’ll ever be able to get the new dog broken of that particular behavior. The dog is eight, and has never really been worked with. There are some behaviors that can’t be modified after a certain point.

Its cool, you adapt to neighbors in order to make everyone in the neighborhood comfortable.

But I’m feeling like I’m the one doing all the adaptation.

Regardless of how much I’ve adapted or how courteous or mindful of others I’ve been It seems like I’m asked for yet more. Now we’ve been asked to clear the dog poo every day and wash down the area where the pups pee every day because the lady of the house next door is pregnant and apparently can smell everything.

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Uh really?

I’m letting my landscaping die because I’m trying to be socially responsible during California’s drought emergency. and you’re telling me I need to wash down a dirt area every day because you can smell dog pee?

Riiiiiight!

We tend to clean up dog poo daily, it’s something we do during the summer anyway. But I’ll be damned if I alter my hosing down of an area that I’ve been rinsing down about twice a week. I’ve integrated the rinsing of the pee area into parsing out water to some of the trees that would otherwise be a fire hazard.

I resent the implication that I have to spend money, I don’t have on a limited resource because a neighbor is pregnant.

This is, I think about us being too nice.

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When you’re a nice person, some people tend to take advantage of you being nice.

You don’t get pissed off about the loss of privacy, and so people assume you don’t care and you have even less privacy, because you’re a nice person.

You don’t get into the HOA thing, or point out that any fence above a certain height REQUIRES a building permit.  But the same people that would build a fence above the prescribed height would be the first to demand you adhere to the rules if you built a fence or building that obstructed their view.

You get told that your dogs are offensive because someone is pregnant. BUT it’s NOT your baby, that person isn’t your wife, and you have nothing to gain except spending more money on water during a drought.  

There was a time when people knew where the limit was.

I have noticed since the completion of the fence, that I haven’t seen my neighbors around much.

Fences say a lot about the people that build them.

I guess I get the message.