Some days I’m just too dark.

mockingtodo20201014.pngThere it is, the “Perky” reminder in my ToDo list saying that I should write something at least in my blog.

It’s overdue too.

Go on you little bastard, mock me!

I’ve tried a couple of different tangents. Trouble is, every time I try to put something on paper it takes a path leading straight to the bowels of hell.

I suppose I’m sick of everything! Although the salacious pictures of Hunter Biden do pique my interest. I’m curious about that 12 minute video… 

By nature, I’m a voyeur so my prurient interest shouldn’t be surprising to anyone.  

Way back in the day I was entirely fascinated by a grainy poor quality video of a 3 way staring a young actor (now famous) that made the rounds on videotape. Even today, the only porn that I can not look away from is of the home grown amateur variety. Much of today’s stylish, scripted, professional porn has become “ho hum” and unfortunately predictable. But the lighting is always awesome!

Along those same lines I’m curious to know what Hunter’s email, video, and pictorial evidence will do to his father’s election chances. 

Oddly enough, I don’t think it will matter one bit.

Joe Biden is under investigation in the Ukraine, has been accused of sexual harassment by Tara Reed, has been caught in at least three other lies where what he claimed was not in fact what was recorded in the public record, and now if the emails found on this computer hard drive are proven to be real he’ll be literally at the center of another scandal.

It won’t matter. He’ll never be subpoenaed, he’ll never be brought to trial, he’ll never answer for any of it.

Hence the blog takes dark turn. Any Republican politician would have already issued the requisite humble apology and been forced to resign. Captains of industry have been destroyed for less. We have police chiefs forced to resign for something their wife tweeted.

Against this backdrop of cancel culture and outrage how can Joe Biden still be a viable candidate? What happened to equality?

If specific targets (Conservatives) can be “Canceled” for these offenses, then everyone can and should be “Canceled” for similar offenses.

There is the crux of it for me. Patent, (dare I say systemic,) inequality. 

Either we are all bound by the same standards, rules, and laws, or none of us are.

If none of us are bound by these things, then why am I wearing a mask in public, not shopping in person, obeying stay at home orders, not looting, or any of the rest of it.

We already have anarchy. I should be out enjoying myself!

See, that’s why you’ll see me skip a few days blogging. It’s actually for your protection…

We’re all in this together!

Hate to Break it to the Ghouls out there…

TrumpBut President Trump has a 99.5% probability of survival.

Sorry to dash your hopes and orgasmic dreams.

Oh, and by the way, if President Trump drops dead you’ll still have Mike Pence as President for the remainder of the Presidential term. Sorry Nancy! Go have some ice cream.

The news feeds lit up about the President having Covid-19. Predictably, all kinds of people came out of the woodwork to express their joy that the President was sick. When it was announced that he was being taken to Walter Reed, I thought my computer was going to blow up.

The ecstasy expressed by celebrities, political opponents, and citizens was to me, absolutely disgusting.  The mask NAZIs were so busy saying, “I told you so,” I’m honestly surprised that there wasn’t a rush of sprained index fingers in the emergency rooms across the nation.

I can’t believe what I’m seeing and I’m ashamed for these people. I’m ashamed that they call themselves Americans. In truth I’ve personally realized a growing shame in Americans over the past 12 years, and the era of Covid has only deepened that shame.

Don’t get me wrong, I’m not ashamed of the police, or our military. I’m ashamed of a large percentage of the American people.

I’ve even begun to feel ashamed of myself for not speaking out against things that were obviously wrong, such as lies, misinformation, and divisiveness.

I didn’t speak out because like many Americans I’ve been afraid of Cancel Culture or losing my job, and plain fear of the mob. I’ve self censored and kept my thoughts to myself. I’ve stood silently by hoping against hope that our better angels would get our attention and we’d go back to being the best versions of ourselves. 

Guess what, it ain’t working. 

Instead of looking inward at ourselves we’ve looked outward for anything or anyone to blame for our failings. 

Last night after the tenth article expressing wholly incorrect information about being able to remove the President and the attendant Schadenfreude over his illness. I was annoyed and the continuous rain of glee from the left was damaging my calm.

Then the other half mentioned that they’d been looking at youtube watching old Laugh-in skits of Ernestine the telephone operator, and that several of the skits had been removed by youtube for apparently violating community guidelines.

I lost it.

I said, to no-one in particular, “This country no longer deserves freedom. At least half the people here deserve whatever hell socialism brings. At this point just launch every fucking nuke on the planet burn it to the ground. A million years from now, something better than the shit called Humans will probably evolve.”  

Needless to say, that got an arched eyebrow from the other half who said, “I think it’s time for you to turn off the tech.”

They were right.

As the screens went dark, I was wondering what had prompted such a strong reaction. 

Censorship of any kind is abhorrent to me.

Being told what to think or believe, especially in a passive aggressive way, is the quickest way to piss me off.

A steady diet of information bereft of facts or where the “facts” are presented in a clearly biased way, does nothing to enhance my calm or confidence.

Seeing rioting in the streets across the country where all the rioters are wearing the same gear looks an awful like a coherent insurrection.

If the rioters (or agitators within the rioters) are all wearing the same “uniform” all I can think of is the Brownshirts of Hitler or Mussolini’s Black shirts. Either way I can’t ignore the similarities in their actions today and those of the NAZI party in its beginnings in Germany.

Like the average German in 1933-36 I know something is wrong, I know someone is pulling the strings, I know someone is funding these “Brownshirts” but I cannot identify who that is.

I sense that there is an enemy to my way of life but am frustrated that I can’t specifically target them. Which simply increases the frustration and causes me as a person to do my best to ignore something that I can’t change. Like the people of Germany I just try to keep my head down and hope that it will all go away.

I’ve come to believe we’re reliving Germany’s experience. This is the same play book with some modifications that led average decent Germans to everything that followed Hitlers rise to power.

A short list of examples:

Growing censorship targeted at “Culturally offensive”, or dissenting opinions. See Cancel Culture and all the voices that have been silenced. Someone even questioning the narrative is attacked and labeled as racist, misogynist, a denier, X Y Z phobic… In short an undesirable.

Specific Targeting of a particular group or affiliated groups as “The Problem”. See the manner in which the Republican Party, or Police have been painted as “The enemy of the people”. For reference see Jews in NAZI Germany.

The creation of an aggrieved class and conflation of that class with the “Common people or Majority” Note that many of the BLM protesters are white bourgeois folks.

Violence, threats, and intimidation, is deemed acceptable if it’s against the bourgeois who are not supportive of the “cause” but people defending themselves from that same violence are labeled criminals.

Defining masks or other symbols, as “For the Greater Good”, then redefining them as a “Patriotic Duty”. What’s next? 2021 ANTIFA Armbands must be worn at all times in public? Whose cock do you have to suck to get an armband?

Encouraging public reporting of “perceived” infractions of regulations. A.K.A an informant network where turning in your neighbors results in tangible rewards or recognition of your service to the state.

Erasure and rewriting of History.  There was never a pureblooded Aryan race. That was a fiction of the NAZI party designed to create a higher social class, as a justification to subjugate anyone who refused the NAZI ideals. The functionality of this fiction was that anyone could be rewarded by being recognized as a long lost Aryan who the former ruling class had treated badly. It created license for those so elevated, to be ruthless and mete out vengeance for perceived ills inflicted upon they and their family for centuries.

Is any of this ringing a bell?

The problem for me is that I know it will not go away. I know this because of history. I can’t look away, I can’t unsee the patterns.

Thanks to COVID, and the complete zero traction I’m getting in my job search I unfortunately have nothing to distract me from watching in horror as the pieces snap together.

The carrot is that everything will be fine after election day. With the caveat; (Everything will be better as long as the left gets its way.) The Left has already said if they don’t get their way the rioting will continue and expand.

Encyclopedia Britannica has this to say about Hitler’s rise to power.

The entire article is linked here. 

I’m putting some excerpts here rather than the entire article.

Reichstag fire, burning of the Reichstag (parliament) building in Berlin, on the night of February 27, 1933, a key event in the establishment of the Nazidictatorship and widely believed to have been contrived by the newly formed Nazi government itself to turn public opinion against its opponents and to assume emergency powers.

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On February 28, 1933, the day after the fire, Hitler’s dictatorship began with the enactment of a decree “for the Protection of the People and the State,” which dispensed with all constitutional protection of political, personal, and property rights. Though the ensuing elections still did not give the Nazis an outright majority, they were able to persuade the Reichstag to pass an Enabling Act (March 23) whereby all its legislative powers were transferred to the Reich Cabinet by a vote of 444 to 94, so sanctioning the dictatorship.

My question is; which side will light the fire, metaphorically or otherwise. 

The Left says Trump is after a dictatorship. Honestly I don’t see it. 

Biden and Harris seem to be much more dictatorial.

Trump is arrogant, narcissistic, and bombastic but he’s not changed his spots throughout the course of his widely publicized life. Trump is pretty much today, as he’s always been. He’s results and goal driven and not afraid to fire someone that’s not doing the job.

Biden and Harris on the other hand are engaging in revisionist history about their own policies and lives. That makes me far more suspicious of them and their motives.

More worrisome to me is who is actually pulling the strings? The media is generally skewed left and can’t say enough bad about Trump or his policies instead of simply reporting the good and the bad.

Another question is to what end is someone pulling the strings? What’s the end game?

If as many on the far right claim George Soros is holding the leash then, is he hoping after all this time to create a Fourth Reich? Looking at his history and the fact that he was a full on NAZI could it be that simple? Or is someone holding Soros’s leash as the NAZI party did so long ago?

Maybe all of this is just COVID fatigue. Maybe I’m seeing patterns where none exist. Perhaps it’s a cycle of insanity that humanity goes through when our numbers become too great. Historically, there are ruins of civilizations all over the planet. Each of those civilizations thought itself too big or righteous to fail.

Perhaps this is how humanity grows and I’m simply unlucky enough to be stuck on this rock during one of the death & regrowth phases.

I can tell you this, If I could leave this planet I would. I’d prefer the sterility of the endless stars to dealing with the insanity and uncertainty of this planet infested with insane apes.

Interesting

I’ve lived in this area for almost 30 years.

During that time I’ve seen a variety of wild life including snakes from time to time. Prior to this year I’ve seen only one rattlesnake.

This year I’ve seen two in the neighborhood. The first one was in my yard, unfortunately I don’t have a very good photo of it.

Yesterday, I heard some girls screaming that there was a snake. They’re children so as an adult it’s on me to insure they’re not hurt and that they don’t antagonize a snake that could hurt them.

I’m thinking it’s a California King snake, or a Gopher Snake and the girls are just being girls. I was wrong.

The snake had crossed paths, or rather one of the girls had stepped over the snake and it rattled at her. By the time I got there the snake had moved to a defensible position and was alert but not aggressive.

The girls guardians showed up a couple of minutes later, then the discussion about killing the poor thing began.

Generally speaking I’m not in favor of killing creatures just because they happen to exist. As it turns out the “father” shared my general opinion.

What surprised me was the bloodlust of the little girls. They wanted it dead. It had done them no harm, it had warned them to stay away, and appeared to be waiting patiently for the hubbub to die down.

I imagine that it would have left the area of its own accord had it not been for all the humans around.

Probably, if the snake had not been positioned as it was, it would be dead now. The thing is, there was no clear way to strike at it with a shovel or ax that would insure an instant kill. Meaning that if we’d struck at it, we’d have probably just pissed it off and it would have struck at us.

We had a rattlesnake standoff. Myself and the other male were discussing the options when one of the little girls was just rabid about killing it. She kept saying, “Kill it, Kill it,” in an ever increasing volume. Without thinking I said, “If you want something dead that bad, maybe you should be the one prepared to kill it,” and gestured toward her with the trenching tool I was holding.

She suddenly got quiet. I don’t know what was going through her head. I hope that it was the realization that killing anything isn’t trivial. Even if it’s not your hand on the instrument of death. I doubt that’s what she thought, she probably wasn’t old enough to make that kind of connection.

Eventually, one of the neighbors remembered there was someone in town who would relocate snakes to another canyon (unpopulated) so we gave them a call. They weren’t available, but they hooked us up with a lady who was. Twenty minutes later, the snake was safely in a box and heading to a place where it wouldn’t have to deal vicious blood thirsty humans.

The experience left me thinking.

I’ve killed snakes that were an immediate threat. I felt bad about killing ’em but given the circumstances there was no choice.

I’ve killed other creatures and ate ’em, in that situation it was because I was hungry. Even fishing, you’re killing another creature, which means that there’s supposed to be a built in limit.

You kill what you need, you kill whatever it is quickly and humanely, you eat what you kill, and you don’t arbitrarily or wantonly kill more than you need for yourself or your family.

Most men I know subscribe to the same principals. But wait, males are supposed to be the vicious killers aren’t they?

Why then were the little girls and the adult women screeching for blood? Why was it that the males were willing to take a watchful caution?

Had it only been me and the other guy, we’d have probably let the snake go its way and we’d have watched it go back into the forest. Two predator species respecting each other.

Because of the presence of women, we were under pressure to do something, anything, even if what we did was going to make the situation worse.

It occurred to me that almost every conflict I’ve ever been a part of, or witnessed was driven by women. Either the males were trying to impress, or the women were demanding action.

I makes me wonder…

I can understand that women might be genetically predisposed to eliminate any possible threat to their young whether or not the threat is real.

I wonder if men on the other hand, because we’re stronger, and usually have been the ones to get our hands bloody, might have an inherent respect for life & death that goes unacknowledged. We learn early on, that killing is bloody and final. We understand that when we kill, we’ve removed something from the world, on some level we understand that once gone it’s gone forever.

Granted some men acquire a taste for killing but most men I know have a deep respect for life, and don’t take it lightly, or for granted.

It’s strange how simple events get me thinking.

It’s Due to COVID…

“Due to the ongoing pandemic crisis we have made changes to our enterprise systems to protect your health and the health of our employees. This may cause longer than usual wait times. For faster service please use our voice prompt system or our website. If the answer you’re looking for is not available please continue to hold…”

Alright, I call BULLSHIT!

First of all I as a customer don’t care. Whatever you’re doing to protect your employees is your business. It’s between you and your employees. This is especially true if I’m calling someone like a credit card service or my insurance company. I DON’T see you people in person EVER!

Second of all, I’ve been noticing that there are a lot more errors. Errors in Billing, Errors in shipments, Errors in services rendered.

And when I call folks on those errors, the response is “Oh well with COVID, blah blah blah” The problem is, computers don’t get COVID. COVID doesn’t suddenly and mysteriously change due dates, causing late charges on credit bills. Someone commanded that change but it wasn’t COVID.

COVID doesn’t add two days to shipping in the one second between the time I click on “Checkout” and the time I press “PAY”. If you’re going to quote me a delivery date on my whole order, then split that order and space it out of 4 days after I’ve pressed PAY and entered my credit card info just quote me the real date not some fiction.

“But it’s due to COVID”

NO, IT ISN’T!

You know what’s in your warehouses and you also know how long the shit I order is going to take to get to me.

Somewhere in the billing systems for credit cards there’s an algorithm that says, “If customer pays bill two weeks ahead of schedule, then adjust Due Date to three weeks earlier.” Deposit collected late fees in account marked “Profit Skim”.

A second algorithm says note in customer account for representative. “If customer calls to complain reverse charges and allow customer to choose new billing date. Blame it on COVID”

The hope in the case of the credit card companies is that most people won’t call ‘em on it and will just pay the late fee, assuming that they (the customer) made a mistake.

The best case scenario for the credit card company is that the customer won’t notice it at all, and is an auto pay customer. If they pay a fixed amount monthly, then the unpaid late charges generate another full amount late fee that continues to add up month over month until the entire monthly payment is consumed in late fees but nothing is applying toward the actual debt. 

Once that happens the late fee cycle resets causing the customer to essentially make no headway towards paying off their debt.

My plan is to pay off all the credit cards and not have more than one. I prefer CASH or debit card transactions. I’ll keep one credit card for those weird life emergencies. But I’m cutting up cards as quickly as I can. 

COVID has become the Catch All phrase that is supposed to be the acceptable excuse for whatever someone has screwed up.

I’m sick of it. 

Own your screwups, don’t blame your mess on a virus that appears to be 99% survivable without intervention.

Yeah 1% of the population is a big freakin number. But to date, less than 1% of the population has died and the financial computer systems are still running.

It’s funny that for all the mistakes I’ve been seeing, I’m still getting the bills. You’d think that at least one of these institutions would have an outage that takes out their billing wouldn’t you?

Grrrr!

Sadly Portland you’re dead to me

Much like Seattle and San Francisco.

Portland at least grew it’s own roses for the funeral.

It’s really simple. As beautiful as these cities are from the air, and they are beautiful, I have ZERO desire to visit them. Why the hell would I knowingly walk into cities where I’m not only a target, but where I can’t be responsible for my own protection and the police have been gutted?

Why would I want to visit one of these cities now? Places where the wrong word or the slightest of incorrect reactions could get you beaten by a mob?

Doesn’t do much for your tourism does it?

57 Days and nights of rioting? Really?

You people are out of your damn minds. And even if the rioting stops (and it will), the people responsible for all this civil unrest will still be there, just below the surface, waiting for another excuse, or opportunity to mete out their particular brand so-called justice.

Seattle, and San Francisco are no better. Los Angeles is heading the same direction. Los Angeles is slightly different because it’s always been a dangerous place. You know what you’re getting into there, and you never travel in certain districts alone or at night.

I remember a scene from Logan’s Run. The hero and pretty girl are heading to a part of the city overrun with rabid children. There’s a voice from their conveyance repeating, “Warning, You are now entering a personal hazard zone,”

That’s how I feel every time I go into Los Angeles. A similar message should be playing on every flight landing in cities in the Pacific Northwest.

I don’t know anymore what these people are rioting about. I don’t know the cause of their lawlessness and further… I don’t give a shit. They can burn their homes and cities to the ground, then start slaughtering each other, over scraps of bread or some imagined insult or lack of respect. I don’t care.

If the feds march in and just start shooting the rioters, I won’t shed a single tear. Nor will I be shocked. In fact I might make popcorn and watch the show.

This is what happens when stupidity, lawlessness, and anarchy are allowed to go on for too long. It loses its impact, and the original message is long since forgotten.

All I see now is people who look and behave like they’re straight out of Fallujah. In my eyes they are no longer human, or worth saving. They’ve become rabid animals and the only way to deal with that, is to put the animals out of their misery.

I would enjoy seeing the Mayors, Governors, and so called city leaders literally ripped apart by the very rioters they’ve been making endless excuses for. They’d serve as an object lesson to other weak willed political leaders.

I know I sound harsh.

I worry for my friends in Portland because the bullshit is happening right there outside their apartments. I’ve told them it isn’t going to get any better until someone steps up and says “NO MORE”.

My friends respond with, “It’s better today… The ‘protesters’ only burned one dumpster and broke only a few windows.”

That blows my mind. My friends are starting to exhibit Stockholm Syndrome. They’re grading the quality of their days not by there being no violence, but by the level of violence that has become constant.

That’s like saying it was a good weekend in Chicago. There were only 35 shootings instead of 37. What!? That there were any shootings in Chicago is a concern, more so since shootings are so commonplace that no-one takes much notice. That speaks to a much more serious problem.

A rather large problem that no-one is talking about.

What about the rights of the people who live at ground zero? Don’t they have the right to live in a safe and secure place? Why do “Protesters” and I use that term loosely get a pass to make everyone suffer? How insane is it that normal average people are fearful leaving their homes?

It’s way past time for LAW AND ORDER to be reinstated. If that means bodies of protesters in the streets, so be it. At this point while the media would loose its shit, I bet that the majority of America would stand up and cheer.