Even being out of work, I still had hope and I was fighting to maintain that hope and better my situation.<\/p>\n
Now I’m plainly disinterested.<\/p>\n
Yes I’m working… but the job and demands of that job are draining. I have little hope, I’ve got income, but not enough to advance. Advancement in the organization I work for is non-existent. Clearly without advancement there will be no greater income aside from lousy 2% annual raises.<\/p>\n
There other thing I’ve noticed is that over the last two years, I’ve not been creative. I’m bored by this job, and by the people I interact with. That boredom is evident in my writing and like many other things is a wake-up call that I need a change.<\/p>\n
It’s not like I haven’t known this for some time. It’s just interesting to notice the change over time as chronicled in the blog.<\/p>\n
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Over the past couple of years, I’ve been feeling “numb”, so numb and isolated that I’ve actually lost the desire to interact with anyone or anything.<\/p>\n
Granted in this age it’s easy to become distracted and isolated. Our overuse of technology makes that all too easy. But when all you have to look forward to is a never ending stream of sameness, I think you become “numb” just to keep the frustration in check.<\/p>\n
I gotta shake things up, and nobody is going to make that happen for me… Except ME!<\/p>\n
On a social front I’m trapped by my job and obligations to be elsewhere so in the immediate future there’s nothing I can change. I can however start carving out time for myself. Nothing major, just an hour here or there.<\/p>\n
On the job front I must get out there and find a new job even if that means putting up with a thousand morons who are just trying to “SPAM” my resume all over town. Ideally, finding something interesting, even if it’s only temporary would be better than where I am now.<\/p>\n
What’s the saying? Definition of the problem is the first step in solving the problem.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
Had the opportunity… well, maybe not opportunity so much as fell into it, to read a lot of my previous blog posts. It was an interesting and telling experience. I’m a lot “Darker” over the past 2 years than I was even when I was out of work. Even being out of work, I still … <\/p>\n