{"id":15122,"date":"2025-01-12T18:25:57","date_gmt":"2025-01-13T02:25:57","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/?p=15122"},"modified":"2025-02-03T08:30:24","modified_gmt":"2025-02-03T16:30:24","slug":"i-made-it-through-another-anniversary","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/2025\/01\/12\/i-made-it-through-another-anniversary\/","title":{"rendered":"I made it through another anniversary"},"content":{"rendered":"

Two years ago last night, Jerry died. So did a big piece of my heart. Oh, he was a pain in my ass, I suppose I was a pain in his as well. I guess that\u2019s part of relationships. We loved each other and I miss him.<\/p>\n

I was a little emotional through the day. I walked the dog, finished de-christmassing the house, made dinner, poured myself a drink and listened to music. I went to bed about the normal time and slept soundly. I do remember some fragments of dreams but nothing coherent.<\/p>\n

I didn\u2019t drink to excess. I woke up more or less in a decent mood.\u00a0<\/p>\n

I haven\u2019t gotten anything much done today. I played on X too damn much. I\u2019m willing to forgive myself for that.<\/p>\n

I need to settle down, and to apply for a bunch of jobs. I doubt that I\u2019ll get much if any response. But I feel like I have to try.<\/p>\n

\"\"As I said, the Christmas tree and associated decorations are all put away. I was able to dispose of a box through consolidation. Going through the decorations was bittersweet.<\/p>\n

I have sweet memories of the Christmases Jerry & I spent together.<\/p>\n

Each ornament is special and since many of them were saved from the house fire in 2008 there is a greater significance to each.<\/p>\n

\"\"The house is clean, (except the office,) the amount of stuff remaining to be tossed feels never-ending but I know I\u2019m making progress.<\/p>\n

The living, dining, kitchen, and master bedroom are less cluttered. They could all use more de-cluttering but these areas are lighter and more airy. I like it this way.<\/p>\n

There is still much to do, and much to get rid of, but where I\u2019m at and the direction I\u2019m moving feels right and good.<\/p>\n

The point is, this year while a bit rocky was better than last year. I\u2019m better now and while I still miss him, it\u2019s not the kind of pain it was. I\u2019m stronger and somewhat optimistic.<\/p>\n

Perhaps I\u2019m trending toward happy?<\/p>\n

\u00a0<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Two years ago last night, Jerry died. So did a big piece of my heart. Oh, he was a pain in my ass, I suppose I was a pain in his as well. I guess that\u2019s part of relationships. We loved each other and I miss him. I was a little emotional through the day. … <\/p>\n

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