He\u2019s done a shit load of movies but Bros<\/em> is the first one I\u2019ve seen.<\/p>\n I looked up the website of the SCUBA trip organizer I traveled with in 2008. They\u2019re still at it, and they\u2019re heading to Bonaire in October. That\u2019s a tempting get away. It\u2019s unlikely I\u2019ll go because there may simply be too much to deal with this coming year. That being said Bonaire is someplace that I enjoyed. I suppose my going, or not is going to depend a lot on finances and living situation. I could really use some tropical time, and some SCUBA time.<\/p>\n It\u2019s been literally years since I got wet. I should plan on a refresher course and I need a new dive computer. Yes the Apple Watch Ultra has the ability to act as a dive computer, but honestly the way the sensors and algorithms get changed via software, I won\u2019t bet my life on my Apple Watch.<\/p>\n My Apple Watch has too often behaved in arbitrary ways after software updates. I\u2019m leaning more toward an air integrated single purpose dive computer. Let\u2019s have the life support equipment focus<\/em> on being life support equipment.<\/p>\n Perhaps I\u2019ve been sitting in front of screens too much lately. Perhaps I\u2019m spinning a little toward the manic and that\u2019s why I can\u2019t sleep. I\u2019m trying 2 fingers of Jack, jotting down some story notes, and trying like hell to find the insomniac net on the Ham radio. Sometimes the late night \u201cnets\u201d are interesting, I might have the wrong night or\u2026 it\u2019s not late enough yet.<\/p>\n I\u2019ve been having some interesting thoughts about life, moving, starting over, and what happens next. Maybe these thoughts are just dealing with such monumental questions and worries that my poor addled brain is spinning up, instead of spinning down.<\/p>\n Jesse has gone out to the couch which is odd because usually he\u2019s sleeping on the bed whether I\u2019m there or not. On these late nights, I have to work my way into the bed and find space around him. Once he\u2019s out, he\u2019s dead and grumpy weight to move.<\/p>\n It\u2019s raining now, we might see a little bit of snow but at this altitude it\u2019s probably going to be more rain than anything. I\u2019m hoping for rain that is strong enough to make that thrumming sound on the roof that I like. I\u2019m not sure I\u2019d hear it though because there\u2019re still large patches of snow piled on the roof.<\/p>\n Right now It\u2019s Phutureprimative Mind’s Eye <\/em>playing while I sip my bourbon, and try to clear my head. I think Mind\u2019s Eye<\/em> may be one of Phutureprimative\u2019s best albums. Check it out if you can.<\/p>\n I see that the weekly backup of my computer is running. That\u2019s estimated to complete in an hour or so. Right now there\u2019s not enough change on a daily basis to justify backing up to the server hourly. The server spend most of its time in sleep mode. That\u2019s probably just as well since the drives spin down and stay spun down sometimes days at a time.<\/p>\n I think part of that is that on my computer there\u2019s 2 TB of disk, so I\u2019m never going to be fighting for space. Typically if I\u2019m transferring to the server, it\u2019s a huge block of files all at once for archival purposes instead of tons of transfers during the day.\u00a0<\/p>\n Jerry was always transferring stuff to the server.\u00a0<\/p>\n I\u2019m beginning to envision a future. It\u2019s funny, that wasn\u2019t ever a problem when I was young. I had absolute faith that I could regenerate, rising like a Phoenix from the ashes and that I\u2019d be okay. I could recreate myself with ease.<\/p>\n After the house burned, I realized that it was a lot harder to rise. As time went on, I found that I just didn\u2019t have the energy. I was able to create an apartment life in San Diego. But that was an extension of my home here. If shit went sideways, I knew I always had a place to retreat. Selling and moving is a much different proposition. There\u2019s no anchor, no retreat. I\u2019ll be floating raw, naked, with no tethers and whatever I do, must<\/strong><\/em> work flawlessly.<\/p>\n Or mostly flawlessly. I can recover from imperfection\u2026 I\u2019ve done it before, to do so requires only the application of money. Since money is finite and also in short supply I\u2019d like to avoid as much imperfection as possible and thereby unnecessary expense.<\/p>\n I\u2019m still spinning. I\u2019ve been refraining from firing up the PlayStation for a few rounds of Call of Duty. <\/em>That would probably amp me up more.<\/p>\n I miss having the friends from my Military Contractor Job to play with. We trash talked each other and played brutally. I used to be able to take my boss down in the game without fear\u2026 Well, until he respawned and came hunting me. We laughed a lot, swore at each other and had a ton of fun.<\/p>\n I noticed when I activated my PS5 there were all kinds of rules and regulations against trash talking each other. It\u2019s a pity that so many people are that thin skinned or that so many people abused the shit out of communications.<\/p>\n All our trash talk at each other was nothing more than male bonding. I guess that\u2019s something a lot of gay people and especially female to male transgenders simply wouldn\u2019t understand.<\/p>\n I\u2019d reply, \u201cYeah, but you have to find my ass first boss!”<\/p>\n The next morning at work we\u2019d all be laughing and talking about the awesome shots we\u2019d taken, or why it was we were dancing in one spot against a wall.<\/p>\n We all used to teabag each other in Halo. Imagine\u2026 teabagging your boss and him not being pissed about it the next morning.<\/p>\n Well, here we are at 2 AM. The weekly backup is complete.<\/p>\n Now what?<\/p>\n 2nd glass of Jack hasn\u2019t really hit.\u00a0<\/p>\n Games? Bust a Nut? Or just go climb between the sheets and hope the warm bed takes me to dreamland.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" I was winding down for sleep, then boom! I\u2019m wide awake again. I finally saw \u201cBros\u201d today. It\u2019s a cute movie, a somewhat predictable romantic comedy. But I like Luke Macfarlane as an actor. I\u2019ve liked him since KillJoys and it was nice to see him playing something other than one of the Jaqobis boys. … <\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/call-of-duty-wwii-wallpaper-989072146.jpg\" "\\"call-of-duty-wwii-wallpaper-989072146.jpg\\"")
Not that I mind shooting bad guys, I could see myself joining an online game and really getting amped up because the avatars I\u2019d be shooting are representations of real humans. When they respawn, they tend to have a bit of a grudge. I\u2019m a shitty player… even I get lucky from time to time. Most of the time I\u2019m taking a dirt nap waiting to respawn.<\/p>\n![\"\"](\"https:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/wp-content\/uploads\/2024\/02\/halo4.jpeg\" "\\"halo4.jpeg\\"")
There was nothing more gratifying than shooting my boss in the game and having him say \u201cFUCK!!! I\u2019m coming for you when I respawn!\u201d\u00a0<\/p>\n