{"id":12936,"date":"2023-07-31T08:31:25","date_gmt":"2023-07-31T15:31:25","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/?p=12936"},"modified":"2023-07-31T12:32:53","modified_gmt":"2023-07-31T19:32:53","slug":"i-dont-know-what-to-make-of-this","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/bone-in-the-throat.com\/Blog\/2023\/07\/31\/i-dont-know-what-to-make-of-this\/","title":{"rendered":"I don\u2019t know what to make of this\u2026"},"content":{"rendered":"
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This is a maple tree in my neighbors yard that is often pretty accurate in predicting the seasons. This one leaf is autumn but the rest of the tree is still summer green. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I suppose it could be a misfire, or perhaps Winter will be early and long this year. Great! NOT what I want to deal with. After last winter I could do without snow for a while.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I\u2019d hoped to be well into securing a new place to live by now. Trouble is Keyboards are a royal pain in the ass to dispose of. The harps are at least at a consignment store, but I haven\u2019t found a consignment store to put the keyboards in. It\u2019s not just the instruments it\u2019s all the music all the paper work etc. I\u2019m only one man and honestly, I\u2019m having a tough time remaining motivated. I hate cleaning up someone else\u2019s mess. I\u2019m shitty at cleaning up my own messes! LOL!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

As an aside, a couple of the harps have been sold already which is super nice. From the sound of it, the harps have gone to people who will play them and love them that\u2019s a good thing, not that the other half likely cares. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

That\u2019s a funny thing. When I first lost the other half, I was adamant about the instruments going to people who would play them and love them. Now I\u2019m not quite so driven about that. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

It\u2019s moved to the \u201cNice to Have\u201d column and out of the \u201cNecessary\u201d column.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

My view is evolving, I think that\u2019s because the wound isn\u2019t so fresh. Now, I\u2019m recognizing that he\u2019s beyond caring and perhaps I shouldn\u2019t or don\u2019t need to care so much either. Is this me being a bad person? Or me breaking faith? <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I don\u2019t think so, I think I\u2019ve moving toward my hallmark pragmatism that my other half always liked.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

He also knew that underneath my hard outer shell, I\u2019m a sentimental softy. So either way, if he\u2019s interested in Earthly affairs anymore he\u2019ll be tuning in and laughing at me. On the one hand I\u2019m my pragmatic self, on the other hand I\u2019m all sentimental. He knew being caught between the two really pisses me off!<\/p>\n\n\n\n

When the house burned, he was astounded at quickly I disconnected from the possessions and wrote everything off. I wasn\u2019t un-caring but I didn\u2019t\u2019 want to spend time fiddling with things that would never be \u201cRight\u201d again. I was in \u201cToss It & Move On\u201d mode. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

I need to move into that Mode again.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

I may also have to accept that I\u2019m not going to be out of this place this year. <\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

This is a maple tree in my neighbors yard that is often pretty accurate in predicting the seasons. This one leaf is autumn but the rest of the tree is still summer green. I suppose it could be a misfire, or perhaps Winter will be early and long this year. Great! NOT what I want … <\/p>\n

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