I\u2019m tired but not able to sleep.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I was sorting some of his music and there\u2019s something about seeing his handwritten notes in books that he played from every week that makes me feel blue.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve been packing up things that I won\u2019t be needing. DVD\u2019s CD\u2019s and their players since all the movies are streamable as is the music. I\u2019ve been considering packing up the ethernet switch and relying on WiFi only. The switch handles all the CAT-6 cable connections throughout the house. Removing it would disable all the wall sockets.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
The new computer, and iPad have the latest WiFi radios and provide more than acceptable speeds wirelessly.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
The goal is to have all the tech that can or will be shipped boxed. There are a couple of items of tech that I\u2019ll be transporting with me, so that I have them ready to use when I get wherever I\u2019m going. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
The same is true of kitchen appliances \/ utensils \/ glasses and dishes. I might not be actually taking these things with me, but I don\u2019t have to have them occupying space, especially if I\u2019ve got little need to use them.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I hope to have both the cubbies in the dining room empty by the weekend. It\u2019s hard going through all the materials. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
Some of the paperwork is more than 7 years old and once I\u2019ve figured out the date, I\u2019m pretty quick to put stuff on the shred pile. The trouble is that old and new are mixed in a jumble and that jumble isn\u2019t sorted in any way. I\u2019ve been sorting in a gross way. \u201cBanking\u201d, \u201cUtilities\u201d, \u201cPaystubs\u201d, and \u201cOther\u201d if the paperwork passes the initial date check. Doing a subsort of each major category is easier and provides a little crosscheck. For example, all the utilities end up sorted by provider and date. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I see some banker\u2019s boxes in my future where all of this stuff can be filed and properly stored.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
This all sounds like it\u2019s a tedious time consuming mess. It is. However it must be done because there are still taxes to be filed and paid. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
Just because you\u2019re dead doesn\u2019t mean the fucking government isn\u2019t making your shit someone else\u2019s troubles. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I really do hate the government. State and Federal, they\u2019re parasites of the worst kind.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
The dog has gone to bed. I\u2019ve poured myself a second drink. I\u2019ve become very much aware that my writing has suffered over the past year. I was reviewing some of the blog posts I\u2019d written going back a couple of years. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
It wasn\u2019t advanced narcissism, I was looking for a piece I\u2019d written a while ago. I haven\u2019t found the piece, but I did notice a distinct difference in my writing. The time at the shithole company in San Diego, plus my concern about the other half, and all the other stresses in my life are visible in my style, choice of words, and even subject matter.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I need to write my way through the darkness. I need to get back to the quick turn of phrase and making my point.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
For someone who has hated politics all my life, I\u2019ve dedicated considerable keyboard time to it. I\u2019m honestly not sure what that is about. I\u2019d like to think I have something of interest to say, but I don\u2019t think that\u2019s entirely true.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
The more likely truth is that I reached an age where I was able to compare the political system that I grew up understanding and being taught, with the system as it is today. In that comparison, either I\u2019ve discovered significant differences or lost my na\u00efvet\u00e9. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I\u2019m not sure which, if either is true. I only know that there are serious differences. Those differences have caused a dissonance that I\u2019m having a hard time resolving.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I don\u2019t think of my sudden interest in politics as fear, or white nationalism, or whatever else the SPLC might come up with. I\u2019ve always believed there was a certain low level corruption in the political system and that corruption was held in check by there being more honest people in politics than dishonest ones. But now I\u2019m faced with corruption that I can\u2019t ignore and questions that are not being answered despite investigations and inquiries. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
As a citizen, I believe that I deserve answers. Moreover, I deserve to see these bad actors perp walked out of the halls of power and into the halls of prison.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I\u2019ve also come to believe that it\u2019s a very good thing I\u2019m not holding my breath.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I found a printout of a series of messages that the other half had with an artist friend of ours. Time flies! The other half was inviting our friend over to have a three way. I remember the night well and blogged about it too. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
This is the first time I\u2019ve seen the messages that led up to the three way. It appears that the other half had absolute faith that I could handle both of them. It was his overselling of my skills that led to me being somewhat annoyed at the other half because there is only so much sexual gymnastic magic I can perform in a night.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
Nonetheless, reading the message thread and remembering that night put a smile on my face.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I could use a little human tough right about now, but I\u2019m not into being with complete strangers. I really want to get to know someone before we\u2019re having sex.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
It was a really good night!<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I suppose in the near term I\u2019ll have to be content with the large selection of X-rated movies. It is extremely unlikely that I\u2019ll find anyone close at hand who would like to develop a friendship prior to getting naked. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
It\u2019s time to go to bed. <\/p>\n\n\n\n\n
I hope you\u2019ve had a better night\u2019s sleep than I have.<\/p>\n\n\n\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
I\u2019m tired but not able to sleep. I was sorting some of his music and there\u2019s something about seeing his handwritten notes in books that he played from every week that makes me feel blue. I\u2019ve been packing up things that I won\u2019t be needing. DVD\u2019s CD\u2019s and their players since all the movies are … <\/p>\n