It’s not yet “The Day” but it is the beginning of the long holiday weekend.
If I were working for a better employer, I’d have the weekend off and wouldn’t have to worry about driving anywhere. But that’s not reality.
As one of my grandmothers used to say, “Shit in one hand, wish in the other, tell me which one fills up first.”
She could be a very salty lady…
This is the second year that I’ve ending up working through the holiday. It’s weird, I’m not at all in a Christmas spirit. I see all the ads, and the decorations and it has absolutely no effect on me. It’s surreal, I’ve done no shopping, and sent none of my usual cards, ( I should be working on it now), but I’m simply not motivated.
Part of it, is that its been way too warm. Part of it is that most of the people I deal with through work are not in the holiday mood, many of them are as selfish as normal and to be honest, depressingly stupid. Some of the people I deal with, are so massively stupid, I wonder how they’ve survived at all.
I’m going to try to watch some of my favorite holiday movies today to see if I can get a bit more into the holiday mood.
While I’m working on Christmas Day… I’m watching the Die Hard series, even if I’m not paying full attention to it. Hey! Don’t judge, the first two movies happen at Christmas.
I blew off the company Christmas party. Actually the one for our branch of the company. There were several parties, the nicer ones, we weren’t invited to.
It’s demonstrative of the implicit class boundaries that exist where I work. My department is considered the dregs of the company and are therefore not welcome at many events… But a party held at a Zoo?
On the other hand, I can see the higher-ups not wanting to hang with the vast majority of the people that I work with. That’s why I didn’t go to our party.
Even if I’d been invited to the better class parties, I wouldn’t have gone. With maybe 3 exceptions, I don’t consider my co-workers as people that I’d like to hang out with at any time.
Company parties are in general, dangerous.
Offend the wrong person or be perceived in the wrong way due to an offhand remark (or as so often happens these days, an out of context remark… Whether TRUE or not,) and you’re done. No promotions for you, and you’re at the top of the layoff list.
In my particular case, after almost 2 years, I’m still confused with another guy all the time. Since I can prove that I didn’t go, even if he did… I have absolute deniability.
There is clear evidence that he’s been given credit for multiple compliments and some awards that were supposed to go to me. There is also clear evidence that I’ve been blamed for mistakes that he made. Including absences, and that is taking a lot of fighting on my part to correct.
Thank goodness for my mistrust of the company.
I’ve been keeping records since the first or second week of my employment. When my Supervisor talked to me about attendance, I pulled out my records and suddenly, my Supervisor was very interested in making sure that the company records were accurate. I had his full and complete attention when I mentioned that location data was also recorded when I made a time entry, in my phone. Uh huh… yeah you might want to pull the biometric scans of my attendance before making accusations.
I’ll admit that was kind of a nice Christmas present. I truly enjoyed watching him start to sweat. It really made me smile.
I’m not that supervisor’s employee anymore, so hopefully my new supervisor will be a bit better.
But enough about work. It’s still my day off and I choose not to think about it.
Perhaps I’ll sit down at the computer and work out a digital holiday card. Perhaps not…
It’s not that I don’t care about my friends it’s just a matter of energy, this year has been exhausting!