When it comes to it…

T minus 24

The move to San Diego is progressing better than expected. I’ve managed to put this whole thing together in less than 2 weeks. I’m convinced there’s been divine intervention, my luck is never this good and stuff in my life rarely works smoothly. I’m not looking the gift horse in the mouth. I’m saddling that baby up and riding it.

• Apartment secured (And not a moment to spare.)
• Power (established)
• Furniture (being delivered)
• Linens (using what I’ve got around the house here)
• Internet (Coming online next Sunday)
• New job (Starting Monday)
• Bank Account (local to the area)

I’m still within budget but financially, it’s going to be tight for a while. I’ll be working any overtime I can get so that I can widen the margin between Income and outgo. The plan is to start pumping cash back into the mountain house, and continue making progress toward paying off the existing debts.

No matter how positive all of this sounds. 

I can’t help but be somewhat depressed.  It’s raining and that’s not helping. I’m standing on a line. Behind me is what’s familiar and comfortable. Ahead of me is uncharted.  

I’ve lived in this meshuggina town for 24 years. While I’ve wanted to leave for a while, I wanted to leave as a family.  

That’s not happening. I’m only going to be two hours away, but it’s impractical to make that drive all much more than once a week.

I’m not going to be here for either dog, both of whom are getting up there in years. They know something is up, but they don’t know what. The other half is upset, everything about this house and the pups will fall on their shoulders and that’s bumming me out. 

There is no choice I have to get, and stay employed. Any income is better than no income. That knowledge is small comfort.  I’m a creature of habit and my habits are 24 years in-grained. 

On the plus side, I think I’m going to like the area I’m moving into. I’m trying to maintain a positive outlook, and look forward to the changes and the future.  I think a lot of this is first day of a new job jitters.

But nonetheless it’s taking a toll.