Hard to believe isn’t it?
Lately I’ve been censoring myself far more than usual for reasons that I’m not going into.
Suffice it to say that I’m going to try to break out of that habit and get back to having fun with this blog.
After all this blog for me is about fun, not giving a damn, and it’s one place where I can just say what I think with a bit of a devil may care attitude.
This has been a weird year for me.
The past few years have been rough, but this one more than most. 24 years ago, I lost my Father. This year, I’ve been the same age as my Father when he died. That really messed with my head. I expected to be in my 80s before that happened. It’s been hard for me to shake the weirdness of it.
I guess subconsciously, I was expecting to just start falling apart like that first “Engineer” in Prometheus. It even looked like I was falling apart at the beginning of the year. Test after test kept showing oddball results that were indicative of a serious problem.
Luckily, the issue wasn’t what it could have been and it turns out, I’m “healthy” but the timing couldn’t have been worse.
I learned the hard way, that I have to be very careful with all RX drugs and that even the “common, safe, and well known,” drugs may produce wholly undesired results. Worse, is the possibility that due to the commonness of many of these drugs and the margin for safety they have, oddball toxic reactions are the last thing that even the best doctors will look at.
Thankfully I was able to ask the right questions, and my Doctor is a guy who actually listens when I ask questions. Yeah, I’m a pain in his ass, but he’s lucky I don’t see him that often. My Doc brightened my day the last time I saw him, with the happy reminder, “Your warranty has expired”. Gee, “Thanks Doc!”
As my odometer clicks over another year. I’m seeing hopeful signs that my long underemployment is coming to an end, and I know that will brighten my world considerably. More income is a good thing!
When I was younger I’d get really wound up about getting another year older, Now well obviously I still mark the event but not with the soul searching introspection of the past. “Where am I? Have I accomplished anything? Am I a good guy? What is my purpose? Have I lived up to my potential?”
This year I’m past all that bullshit. The only question I’ve asked is “Am I happy?” The answer is generally, “Yes” and the shit I’m not too thrilled about I can change. My warranty may be expired, I’m nowhere near doing so.
Now if I could only figure out how to do that Dr. Who regeneration thing. Some mornings around here look like the Dawn of the Dead!
Have a great week everyone.